This sucks.
I'm riding a big grief wave today. The antidepressants are starting to take their toll, three days in and I'm extremely tearful.....possibly better than the numbness I felt yesterday? I'm not sure. Physically they are making me nauseous, shaky and a racing heart. I've been given a beta blocker to counteract that. I don't like taking medications, and certainly don't want to be taking pills to counteract the pills, but I committed to this so I'm ploughing on and following the advice. I was a little foolish earlier and phoned the stone masons to organise a plaque for Mark's resting place. It's one of the final bits of sad-min to do and I wanted it boxed off. I completely broke down on the phone; the poor man was lovely and suggested I call him back. Cue a text to my mum to ask her to do it for me. I should be stressing over his Christmas gift not a memorial stone. FFS. Facebook keeps showing me ads for memorial jewellery. An...
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